Clarity

SO I haven't posted in a while. On the bright side it's the holidays already so I can pretty much stay up a bit later but it's still pretty late. I guess now it's easier to write stuff cos I'm not linking it to Facebook so I can sorta just rant more. Psychology, biatches.

Actually come to think of it I haven't really done much since the last post. Short post today then!

So Thursday was last day of school (Oh yeahh). Remember it as a pretty draggy cos 1. It was Thursday, the motherload of all shitty days. And 2. It was last day of school. Intended to go for Floorball finals because I wanted to escape school early and also to support them (I'm not THAT selfish okay). But our class wasn't selected for match support so oh well :/ A lot of people were falling sick too and I decided to call it "Last Day of School Syndrome" or "LDS Syndrome". Genius. Figured that people were just tanking through school term so they'd crash at the end of it knowing it was the last day of school :P And it turns out that Mr Teo went for match support in the end so I managed to go home early :D Laughed at the chem people who still had extra lesson WOOPS.

There was climbing training on Friday. Nothing much except that we didn't do hangboard that day. Audrey and Eric talked to us about Pumpfest (Nearly typo-ed that as Pimpfest LOL) and Irwan talked about it also. Feeling nervous abit, but then again I know that we're gonna get our asses handed to us so I guess the important thing would be to go there and have fun :P

Fun

PW group met today to do the prototype. Wanted to get everything done but in the end we only managed to finish up the tray. Should have bought CA for the construction but I guess the scotch tape worked fine (to a certain extent). Played some chess against that genius Heer Tern and promptly got roflstomped even though he hardly plays the game. Reminded me of the times I used to play chess a lot. Maybe one of these days can again, though I don't know anyone else who'd play. The interesting thing was talking with Qi Min and Heer Tern after that about relationships and shit which was really quite amusing. Like how Qi Min couldn't really believe Heer Tern had a gf and kept asking him about it LOL. The she was just like "wtf" at everything cos apparently Heer Tern isn't some romantic sop. Although to be fair some of her reactions could be justified hahaha :P Oh and TIL Qi Min has a bf. *mindblown*

Sighing a lot

Realise I should have taken the chance cos I had a hunch but was too much of an idiot not to repeat myself. Spending the rest of the week wishing I hadn't just left cos I don't know when's the next time and everyone's just so busy and gah RUN-ON SENTENCES. And there's this cadet who keeps pestering me about aero and shit and HE'S FREAKING CRUSHING ON JERLYNN WTF LOL. AND SHE DOESN'T EVEN COME FOR AERO ANYMORE LOL. GAHAHAHAHA Couldn't stop laughing about it AND WHY WOULD HE EVEN TELL ME OHGOD. OKAY. Freaking enough entertainment for the whole fucking week. Ok, in a better mood now. Still regret that I didn't make the right choice at the moment. If I'd known, maybe I'd have chosen differently.

Good Night

Because I don't think there's anything I can do
To fix this loathsome, twisted heart of mine

Beans

The one type we like, in fact

Haven't blogged for a bit. Not to say I can't be bothered, just that haven't really sort of got the mood :P Things have mostly settled down already, if I can say that. Though to be honest, my sort of "settled down" kinda means not doing my homework a lot. Realised that i can only concentrate on one subject's work at a time. Previously it was like math, then physics, then now econs. Then again, I hardly do my work most of the time alr so.... :D

Recapping the stuff since my last post. It was Timo's bday last week XD My bro for like freaking 10 years whoop whoop muacks muacks LOL. Feel a bit paiseh cos I dont know much to say. Ya but in all seriousness, don't think he's gonna read this but thanks for always being my bro through those years. I'll never forget those times where I went to your house so many times until it could have been my second home. Playing COD with you till like freaking 3am plus during the holidays hahahahaaha. Sleeping over a bajillion times and just chatting about LIFE. Helps that we live in the same block :'D SO YAH, THANKS FOR 10 YEARS OF AN AWESOME FRIENDSHIP. Here's to the rest of our lives. Cheers :D (Oh and good luck with that girl you're going for!)

Erghmahgerd totally forgot what I've been doing this week alrrrrrrr :/

OH YA went back to Cat High on wednesday for training! Kinda cool cos it was my first training since POP. But yeah, honestly felt a bit disappointed, especially with PDS. Not to be an ass but our PDS instructors now.... haish paish. Their individual standard is not bad actually, just that I don't get that like, feeling that they can teach well. Actually its not really just for PDS, more of the overall feel that they haven't really settle down into the "mentor" role. Oh well, guess we'll see as time passes. Though I'm quite happy with the top 2 in the way they handle the NCOs. Like ok, maybe they may not be FULLY correct, but at least they tried to do it to the best of their knowledge. SO YEAH...

Wa shit should really keep this short but everything's coming back now

Had soccer finals on Thursday! Was really cool cos we were in double finals AGAINNNN oh yeahhhh. Actually the girls match wasn't really THAT interesting, partly cos we were like just destroying MI. So we took that game quite easily. Saw Lucas and the 4-6/2-1 peeps before the guy's match started. The first half we were really playing to our best and came out 3-0 at HT. BUDDEN in the second half wah freaking HEART ATTACK LEH. Damn stress cos RJ scored twice in like 3 MINS so it was like 3-2 for the last 15mins or so and I swear I was all ready to just shat mah pants. But heng ah we countered back well and yeah, GOT ZE TITLE. DOUBLEEEEE CHAMPIONS. I WANT MY SECOND FULL DAY HUE HUE HUE.

Was really looking forward to aero and went back to HQ on Friday cos SOMEONE *cough*DC*cough* lost track of the freaking key wtf. This is like the second time already. Once is bad enough in the first place. So yeah, Delvin and his 2 cadets came (dunno how he convinced them. Bribed them or something) and Danial also. Jallene and Mira came around lunchtime. So basically spent the whole day fixing up planes. The WORST part was that it was just that: PLANES. NO CA, NO ACCELERATOR, NO RECEIVERS, NO SERVOS, NO TRANSMITTERS. FUUUUUU. I ask the DC he still can give excuses whattheshittttt. The default motors, receivers and transmitters were complete shit ohgod you should see those freaking waste of money. Had to bloody scavenge the electronics, which we took from the kites (Man, I'm a genius) and had to go and transfer all the shit over to the new planes. UGH. Don't know how we gonna conduct anything if always like this. Ya so today (yesterday) was the BAWC itself. Damn HENG that everything more or less ran smoothly, especially the test. Though I'm really kinda sad cos it doesn't seem like anyone from Phase 1 was interested in Air Knights :'( But maybe that's cause BAWC was kind of a shitty experience for them so ah well can't blame them anyways. Phase 2 was also really smooth, no major cockups or anything. Hoping the remaining 2 days for phase 2 go just as well :P Today was good, managed to catch up with some retards and just derp around. Though on the other hand it kinda feels like shit now. Aero used to be something damn fun for me to relax and just fuck around with random shit. Feels more like a job now and its just stressing and I can't freaking ugh.

Sigh sigh sigh sigh I can't prioritise shit. So gonna die for exams.

I keep telling myself I have it under control but I really don't know at this point. Self-discipline Jon. Don't. Be. An. Idiot. I just seem to look forward to torturing myself with hope and then I tell myself I AM CONTENT when really all I ever wanted was just some time. Almost. But then I didn't really have an excuse to do so without sounding completely lame and suspect so whatever. Moving on!

Good Night

When I was a youngster

I wanted to be everything on the planet

Spirit

VJ BOLEH

Easily one of the most epic and inspiring things I've seen in my life. The sheer determination, the deafening roar of the crowd, the absolute hilarity which came after because we couldn't believe what happened. And I guess this is what I really needed after so long. Spirit. Something to cheer about. It kinda only struck me after I got home and I was damn happy so I told my mom "YEAHHHH DOUBLE CHAMPIONS". And she went "So? Also not you playing?" That's when I realised that no, I wasn't playing. But it wasn't just their vjctory to rejoice in. It was something EVERYONE could be happy about about. Because that's what a school means too. Everyone was in it together. Truly, truly one of the most amazing things that I have witnessed with my own eyes. Literally down by a goal for the WHOLE game. In the last HALF a minute we break even. Holy sheets, you can imagine the uproar from our side :D The extra time each team played rather passively so nothing much after that. Then came ze penalty shootout. I was just like "Cmon Gugan, cmon Gugan save that shit". 1-1, 2-1, 3-1, 3-2, and finally 4-2. Gugan saving their last shot BAM. HERE COMES THE PITCH INVASION. Hahahaha wanted get the class to carry up Gugan but the Hockey team beat us to that :P Everyone was just going MAD and like cheering and VJ BOLEHHHHH VJ BOLEHHHH. WHATUP. HOHOHOHO. But to be fair, ggwp to the Raffles peeps, they really played damn well also, especially their goalkeeper, without whom we would have had a much easier time. So yeah, just damn damn damn damn damn happy. FULL DAYYYYYYYYYYYYY. Finally found out what I've been missing. The strength of spirit. The camaraderie. The joy. This is what people talked about all along, and I finally experienced it.

Finally

Went to watch Othello with Ernest, Michelle and Crystal after that ^^ Ernest's mom was damn nice and fetched us alllllll the way to Fort Canning from Sengkang. Lolling at Michelle singing along like mad in the car. It's time to begin, isn't it~~ Ya so we reached there kinda late, like right before the play was about to start. There was like this SEA of people so we had to make do with a spot near the back. Though it wasn't too bad because we weren't that far from the stage in the end. Glad I could manage to catch majority of what was happening (even having not finished reading the whole thing LOL) We ordered Macs during the intermission also and we just happily chomping away during the 2nd half of the play. (Just realised I forgot to pay Crystal back for the food WOOPS). Damn funny one part Michelle just like KNOCKED OUT during one of the scenes trololololol. Ya so after everything just pretty much went home, which was kinda late. Didn't do most of my work that night so I'm swamped for the weekend but OH WELL SHIT HAPPENS.

Definitely one of the best days of my year so far:)

The cast (The set is really cool btw) 

Not even looking properly at the camera LOL

Good Night

To an amazing Hockey team

This one's a fighter :)

Boxes

Gonna random a few stuff since nothing major really happened over the past few days. But first, some things for Fergie :) 

Come to think of it though, I kinda regret not really following this season more closely. Distractions from the computer are a bitch. Would I have watched more games knowing this was his last season? Possibly. But that's over now. I remember when I started to follow football back in Primary 5. My dad was watching a game and I got interested in it. I recalled having this Man U tee shirt my grandma bought when I was damn young (Can't believe I still remember this lol). And from there I decided I would support them :) Kind of a stupid reason, but hey, I was P5, and look how Man U turned out that year :D What a year. From there, the sheer thrill of watching such an epic team was really just. Even after that defeat to City during a certain season *cough*huh who's Mancini?*cough* after which many people said it was the end, I guess I hoped and knew that it wasn't really. Way to show them how to come back this season :) And in the end, all this was possible mainly due to Sir Alex. So for 893 wins, 337 draws, 267 losses in your 26 years, 38 trophies, 13 League titles, 2 Champions Leagues, 5 FA Cups and 4 League Cups. For that amazing rivalry with Jose Mourinho which no one will forget soon. For "knocking Liverpool off their fucking perch". For everything else. Thank you Sir Alex. You have left your legacy in this legendary club :)

Gawd it's been so bloody humid and hot the last few days ugh. It's like a freaking sauna now sia. 

I think that maybe I intentionally left it there cos. I don't want to give myself away. I don't want to destroy what I already have. Ironic isn't it. I just don't have any more words I guess. And all that would be left is an awkward attempt to continue? Maybe. I'm scared of what might happen if I just caved in again. Because I can't concentrate. And all that I want to do is interrupted by that distraction of. You think I'd be able to handle it by now. 

On the other hand, I know what's happening. But what would you have me do?

Good Night

Just take a breath and let it go

Soup

Nothing much for today.

Had NAPFA 2.4 run on Monday which actually went better than expected. Was planning to train like everyday last week to prepare for it. Land up Monday got match so paiseh to run. Tuesday forgot my PE. Wednesday and Friday had training. Can't remember Thursday though. So in the end I guess I just wasted my life away yet again the whole week. Though somehow I'm able to do fine in the actual thing every year. Mental push, huzzah. Heck yeah got mah 28 pts woohoo. Screw SBJ, that's just shit LOL. But it was kinda funny also cos they set up this "water point" which was this poor guy just standing there with a hose and spraying the runners with water as they ran past. Wah after that I really burn already. Just like, collapsed and died right there.

*Thinking...*

A poor spirit

Oh yeah last Saturday went LAN with the Pubstompers too :D Sigh, really miss those times destroying teams 5v5 with them LOL. Oh well we dominated the games that day so I came out feeling kinda happy. Just managed to forget a lot of shit and just well, PLAY. Here's to many more victories (Y) Went to watch Iron Man 3 (again) but this time with SPZM ^^ Although since I was too lazy to go home I just went to the library first. Tried to find some good books but couldn't really find any. Didn't have any titles in mind so I just found some place and started to read wiki articles. I swear advanced Physics is damn cool leh too bad the ones learning now cannot make it already LOL. If only I could make a living off learning my whole life. Oh well ended up sleeping a bit before going to meet the rest for dinner first. Watching again then I start noticing all the hints and foreshadowing in the earlier part of the movie which was kinda cool as well. Oh god Iron Man 3 is really so good I just can't agh.  Really hope RDJ continues to play Tony Stark, partly also cos he seems to BE Tony Stark. Iron Man/The Avengers movies just wouldn't be the same without him... Can't wait  for the next few superhero movies, though Avengers 2 is like 2 years away. HAISHHH...

We create our own demons

Feeling kinda at a loss the last few weeks. Used to have things and people to look forward to but *cough*certain people*cough* screw up so oh well. Everyone seems to be drifting :/ Remember last year? The nights spent in the field. Enduring a billion mosquito bites to see the lights we danced in the sky. I wonder how everyone's doing... It's not just that, it's. People. Ah well, I guess there's still some stuff coming up. Gonna be absolutely dead this holiday.
Can't help that feeling of not being able to match up. I delude myself using terms and words which in the end. Hopeless foolishness, but I've made up my mind. Maybe after a while. Maybe after comfort sets in. Maybe when I stop being such a weakass shit. In the meantime, no point wanting more. What can half an army do against the might of 2?

Photograph and White Tulips

"Far better it is to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs, even though checkered by failure... than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy nor suffer much, because they live in a gray twilight that knows not victory nor defeat" - Theodore Roosevelt

Good Night

Cause that would drive me crazy