Sometimes I wonder if everything I do is going to be wasted. The most common phrase this weekend seems to be "Oh Sec 4 already ah? O levels right? Good luck ah!" *Hands me ang pao*
*thinking to myself: I need all the luck I can get* If everything I do go down the drain, I don't know what I'll do. Cry? Scream? Commit myself to an eternity of silence? Slap Mr Quay? Hear too many horror stories already.
Wah stress.
But cannot be leh... I don't know lah. It's like, the last few days I just feel damn frustrated for no apparent reason. Just need to find someone to scold/punch/stab/kick/*insert violent action here* So yeah. But now also not supposed to be stress period yet. School's barely started...
I thought everything would be fine. Am I getting disappointed over nothing again? Need to find someone to blame for all the trouble I've caused, yet I know that hey, I need to look in the fucking mirror.
I don't want to be an old man filled with regret, waiting in a room for someone to wash ashore and bring me out of limbo.
And now it's everyone for themselves. I don't think I'll even be able to outline the book I wanna write. Got so many ideas in my head, but procrastinating and still haven't put it down.
Haiz, want win more money also cannot, cos no one to gamble with. Haha greedy much. It seems like everyone else so close with their relatives.. all I do is eat dinner with them. I hardly even get to see my extended family on my mother's side. All my cousins there are so old alreadyyy....
Tsk tsk
Good Night
