Well it's kinda late now, but I guess I'm used to sleeping
much later. Sigh I have no idea how I'm going to sleep early again when school
starts. Which is actually sort of the reason I'm posting today. I'm actually
afraid of going to school. Ok afraid isn't really the word. I think
"anxious" is better. New environment, new culture, new people. I
don't make good friends easily, but when I do, they're family (See what I did
there. Ok nvm that was retarded). But I guess that's the truth. And now
everyone pangseh to go Hwa Chong or Raffles. Sigh, again. Maybe I should really
just think for myself sometimes. You don't set out to get people to know you,
but sometimes it's hard to swallow when people don't want to because of
something you yourself can't control. But that's life innit. You take what you
get and try to make the best out of a shitty circumstance. Just saying, I'm not raging now. Nor
frustrated to be honest. It's not even sad. It's just... suck it up. Bopian.
People suck. I mean now, literally, there is no hope for
humans. That accident today, is already sad enough. I find myself wondering how
anyone in the right fucking mind would actually take a picture of that. It’s
sick. Sick to the core. And people continue spreading. You fucking mad? You
lifeless shit, still can joke about it. That keyboard warrior on Twitter, not
so big now eh. If you really did respect those kids and want them to RIP, don’t
fucking spread the pictures like an insensitive mofo. It’s not even funny in
the least bit, and I’m being completely serious and sincere here.
On another note.
I still find it kind of funny how the 2 groups are so
similar in working yet different in appearance. That one person that will
succeed while others watch on. I'm very sure this is the case, just that how
obvious it is, is a different matter altogether. And how amusing it is also
because the success stems from something they were born with, something you
can't control. But I guess you learn after a while to entertain yourself with
this situation and eventually, well... :)
When the time came, maybe I should've grown some steel. And
you know what sucks. It sucks that if it was just different I could at least
say something. But now I can’t. I can’t because if anyone knew I’d be in a
worse position than complete bullshit. It would change almost everything of
worth to me.
“I know that it's your soul but could you bottle it up? And
get down to the heart of it”
Good Night
