Wishes

That reply made me think "In fact, I really do".

Typing this out in Malaysia cos I know I'll be too lazy to type everything out when I get back and will probably delay it for days. Feeling kinda dizzy now (the ride?) so I'll see what I can fit in before I go bathe too.

So my original plan wasn't going so well. It was to try and stay up till about 3 plus playing LoL and shit so I could sleep in the car the whole way day. I do that half the time anyway. Land up the Major League Ponies weren't online so I kinda just slept around 2plus. *closeenough* In the end I slept in the car the whole way there anway. So nothing much there. We checked in slightly after 2 and just derped around until we had to go for mass. Checked out the room (which was damn cool!) and watched Avengers on TV lololol. The church we went to was ALSO SFX and it was reallyyyyyyy nice :D Went for dinner at this Nonya place and the food was heavenlyyyyy omg all the curry and asam and the RENDANG. Shiok max. Was singing retardedly with Timo at the back of the car on the way home. We attempted something in the range of a full rock concert featuring almost all the All Time Low songs LOL.

So next day (today) we spent almost the whole day at the theme park hehehehe ^^ Though breakfast in the morning made me feel like I was gonna have a sorethroat too LOL. Yaaaa so omg the theme parks were damn cool. Even considering that I'm not a "coaster person". Really fun trying out all the different stuff like the Tomahawk and the Haunted House at the end :D The Haunted House was damn cool LOL but I was venting my anxiety by laughing hahahaha. Though come to think of it I was laughing also because it really was that enjoyable when the zombies and pontianaks jumpscared us trolololol. Lunch at Subways, then we went for all the water stuff. We were damn excited about the Vuvuzuela which is this huge cone-shaped ride and you slide along the inner circumference of it. We went on that first then after that this racing board thingy-which I lost at first then won when we went again okay-and moved on to the section of tunnelly slidy thingies. Timo hit his head the last time he came and took the pitch black one so we went on the open air one hahaha. Brought back memories of the last time I came here. Was supposed to
go to the wavepool after that but we decided to go for the vuvuzuela AGAIN HAHAHA. Omg this was the retarded part. First, Timo and I got stuck with these kids so WE WEREN'T HEAVY ENOUGH TO GO OVER THE DROP LOLOLOL. SO WE JUST SAT THERE SCREAMING OUR HEADS OFF AND FRANTICALLY TRYING TO PUSH THE FLOAT BEFORE THE NEXT ONE CAME AND DID THE JOB FOR US. The next one was genuinely scary. We got put with these 4 heavyweight dudes who ALL SAT ON ONE SIDE. When we slid around the sides I was really fucking scared we would flip over cos we nearly did a few times HAHAHAHAHA. Came back and dinnered, nothing much, but the food was good :)

Why are you my remedy?

I'm afraid. Because people suck sometimes, and what if I get drawn in with the rest? What if I'm just using this clusterfuck and subsequent vulnerability as a means to my intentions? Sigh, this is getting kinda confusing too :/ I know one thing for sure. But can I do more than stand idly by and just say things??? I keep on wondering who that is on the other end and i guess you could say there's a tinge of green there but. But who am I to experience that? And I see others who make it look so easy, even though on paper its like moving a goddamn mountain. And they just say "Don't care". But this is different. If things were a bit more normal maybe it would suffice to follow said advice, but they're not, innit, and that's what makes it so special, to me at least.

Good Night

If these sheets were the states and you were miles away,

I'd fold them end over end to bring you closer to me