So yeah the thing that was in my head one day was that you know how everyone seems to ask "What do you want to be when you grow up" and people always reply with what they want to DO when they grow up. It's kind of boggling actually, how we always say what we want to DO when we grow up instead of what we want to BE. Do you want to be a good person? Or we always define someone by what they've done. A pilot, a lawyer, you know. But when I think of it, it's funny how my mind always inevitably drifts to. You know how it is sigh. I want. To. Be. Happy. To have courage. Meh, okay this is starting to sound super cringe-y so I'll stop here. But hey, that's basically the essence of what ran through my mind that day. And yeah this is repeating myself but as bad as it sounds and as IMMATURE as I know it is sometimes I really wish something bad would happen to me just so I could have a reason to do something about this. And like, I really don't know how. As in, I know what to do but why am I still SO SO goddamn irritated over this. And FUCK MY LIFE I KEPT THINKING PROMOS STARTED ON WEDNESDAY. IT'S TOMORROW OHGOD WHAT HAVE I DONE. But I think I still have time it's ok it's ok. God I really need to talk to someone now. Ok God. Good. Tomorrow morning.
Sorry for all the short posts lately. Lol nvm I'm not sure who still reads this anyway. Will post about promos... well after promos...
Good Night
I miss the days my mind would just rest quiet
My imagination hadn't turned on me yet
