Evaluation

It seems like I can't even really talk much about anything now. Either nothing happens, or things just repeat itself lol. Kind of ironic how I'm just repeating so much shit when I post. Spent another Saturday doing absolutely nothing again. Revving up my studying again I think. Kind of. Was talking to Jia Zhi about how it feels so long in between climbing, even though it's only a week. Endurance really quite bad now so gotta work on that. I miss leading with the team so much :( I miss the days when Haziq, Jia Zhi and I would spam that yellow route on the speed wall until we were so elated at finishing that shit in one go after 6 months. I miss bouldering until I couldn't feel my forearms anymore. I miss getting flappers (Ok maybe I don't). I miss all the near rope burns from overhang falls. I miss the feeling of clipping in the anchor. I miss last year. I miss being happy.

Sigh. It's just 14 more weeks, starting tomorrow. It's gonna feel like an eternity. But after that maybe I can look forward to the next day again.

CT2 has been pretty brutal and completely lopsided. Have gotten back everything except for Lit now (that's probably gonna be next week). As it stands it's a BES_/B. Almost got my first A of my JC life with GP. Stuck up at 68 cos my compre was a bit disappointing. Well on the bright side, it's one less subject to worry about. Actually the ONLY subject I don't really worry about. Econs was really really disappointing though. Put a lot of effort into it but I guess my essay writing for econs just... sucks. Lol. Decided to practise essays and pass them to Mr Lum every week to work on that. Hope I do well for Lit. A C would be pretty nice to improve on CT1 overall.

Realising I'm just enticed by the idea of it rather than it itself now aren't I. Time to admit certain things.

Good Night

I miss the taste of sweet life