Heh, writing this over the course of a few days in school. People still think I'm writing an essay or something. Writing it down on paper feels so much more therapeutic than typing it down. Feels just that bit more. Human. Kinda important to hold on to something before you become dead inside.
Last Friday, wasn't climbing so went back to training with Ze Bin. Ian was already there :P Speaking of climbing, I've been suspended from our "weekly recreational climbs" lol. By the time we reached sch already they had finished PT and shit already so we just derped around,and Zhi Ming came later. Sad to see the decline in the state of the unit. Standards going down, discipline like cui, protocol not followed. Sheesh. One cadet even "Okay can"-ed me while I was pumping him. Got damn irritated by the Part As cos some of them ponned, and gave freaking stupid excuses. "Got test on Monday need study" (Seriously who studies 3 days in advance in Sec 1), "Got project to do over the weekend" (Sec 1 what bullshit project man). Like honestly, even if they weren't lying, it's still a stupid-ass excuse. You're expected to be able to juggle your responsibilities like seriously sec 1 how hard can it get. It's not even streaming year. 4hrs less studying on a Friday really won't make much diff. The worst part is that, we can't do anything cos of the goddamn parents. I was willing to give a chance to them even though everyone keeps saying what "Strawberry generation". But when I hear from the NCOs what was going on its really damn irritating. WE can't do anything without them complaining to their parents. Like wtf man. After that we met Lucas and went to the prata place at Thomson to eat dinner. Xiang Bin freaking ran from Bishan to there lol. Had a good time chatting and went to Udders after that hahaha :D Lucas ordered this Earl Grey/Green Tea double-scoop, which tasted kind of weird. Yeah, talked a lot (especially about The Conjuring which Lucas watched the other day). Good way to end a crappy week:)
Aish, the things I should have said that time on the way back. Maybe another time.
Last saturday was phase 2 of mod specs. Was the PC again, for Bravo , and Nabil was my APC lol. Nothing much, pretty normal I guess. Chionged finish the tests like the previous phase. Though at one point Nabil got damn pissed off at one guy cos he started before the timing and kept denying it. Then Nabil was like "He probably hates me now... GOOD". LOLOLOL. So we finish up the tests and then talked cock to our own platoons for a bit. I asked Ze Bin if we could switch platoons for awhile so I just like entertained them for a bit. Then one of them asked me if ZB had a girlfriend so I replied "No but he's a pimp" HAHAHAHA and she looked damn confused cos she didn't know what it meant and I was super amused. Apparently my platoon said I was damn talkative (I just didn't want them to get bored). The funny part of the day was marking all the papers and seeing one stupid answer after another LOL. But after a while it got pretty irritating cos I realised no one cared and setting the goddamn paper was a waste of time. Dinnered at KFC after that and went home.
Sigh... Need to talk to a lot of people but I don't know how to approach them. Whether they'll take me seriously/suddenly view me differently. Haish, it's intimidating. But for one, it has to be done. Not sure if they'd do the same for me, but it's my own belief that certain people have the right to know. And realising I'm pretty hypocritical. I keep talking about personal responsibility yet in this case I keep pushing away the blame. And I get super irritated over something that is my own fault. Time to grow some goddamn balls and realise that if you want to do something you can't always expect someone else to start it for you. Lol after all these stupid posts I think people are starting to get an inkling. But for now, I'll just be in the dark as well.
Good Night
Keep your head up
Keep your heart strong
