Screw Ups

Things haven't been exactly going according to plan lately.

I guess I haven't blogged lately cos I was always too tired. Doing it now while I have time.

Screw Up Number 1. Lol not sure whether this counts as a screw up since well... I constantly screw it up. Chinese. I guess I expected to fail, but somehow held on to the hope I might still pass well enough. Paper 2 sure crushed that hope. Srsly don't know how I could've screwed it up so bad. Although overall I passed, and I'm not ''2nd'' agn lol. So I guess it was a half screw-up

Screw Up Number 2. PHYSICS. I knew the whole level screwed up, but I still hoped I would at least get a B. When I got back my paper and looked through I felt like slapping myself. Lost so many marks due to little mistakes. Should've studied harder argh. Could've snagged a B3. *headbang* So many careless mistakes...

Screw Up Number 3. History. Of all bloody subjects, this was supposed to cheer me up. Especially after my Combined Humans did ok. And ESPECIALLY after I studied BOTH the goddamn revision packs. As in STUDIED. Like seriously. Get back paper, both essays screw up. NSP never explain enough. Ok that one I guess is a valid point to pull down my marks. But the Japan question? Apparently I didn't ''state my points clearly''. Wtf man. That one's a bit extreme. I did link back my points under the 3 aspects, although granted I didn't state them in the first sentence. I guess I'll have to work on my presentation for Prelim 1. I'm determined to get the A1 from History that has eluded me for so long.

Screw Up Number 4. Street Soccer Comp. I guess this doesn't really count, cos it was out of our hands. But definitely could've done better. Plus, the fact that ACSI Air got through to the finals is leaving me seething. Sorry Danial, but I really hoped you'd crash out as well :P To be blunt, I seriously should've replaced the entire soccer team, including myself. Although it is interesting to note that out of all the pairings, our's was the most imba. Home team against one of the noobest teams. While the other not so good schools still had playable opponents so they could get through the loser's pool. We just couldn't match up to TKSS. It was kinda like Man U against Derby County or something. Oh well, the shooting team better not screw up. Challenge Quest shouldn't be a problem.

Getting back the rest of my results on Monday. Both maths, which I'm praying are minimal A2s. And chem, which hopefully I can get a B4/3. That should wrap up a disastrous EOY, although I still might be able to reach the ≤15 points target I set. Hoping my English oral can do well enough as well to secure an A1. Although I'll most prolly get an A2. I'd have to just pass or fail oral to get less than an A, so hopefully that serves as some consolation.

Blah, shouldn't have gone for the ball. My elboe hurts, and I'm afraid or showering with all the open wounds. And I accidentally stained the couch with my blood when I was sleeping lol. Hi 5 Lucas!

And I tell myself not to get angry. After all, you have other priorities. I'll just have to accept that both of you are gone. Oh well. *exasperated*

Good uhm... Evening?

Goodbye. Aha, that's better

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Ghosts

Bah, everyone's gone, more or less. I guess I shouldn't be angry, cos you must have your reasons. And I guess I have no right to know either. I just hope I can count on you when the time comes. That you aren't wondering off emotionally volatile when I need your help. So hey, I'm just gonna keep my mouth shut. *zips* Believe me, even though it doesn't seem like it. I think a lot before I say anything. So hey, if I've been maintaining this facade for God-knows how long, shouldn't be a problem now

Is it my SIM card, or is everyone just dao-ing me. But Ian and Jerevis managed to reply. so I guess it's the latter :/ It's like everyone's just left me to die.

Am I scared of what might happen? I guess so. It sounds like you've given up. And you've never seemed that way before. Is it my fault? I guess so. Although I swear I never meant to lead you on. But hey, even involuntary manslaughter is a crime. So I guess the guilt lies with me. Please just know that I also have no idea what to make out of this. I told myself that I wouldn't. But will I enforce it? Right now I don't even know whether to ask you to wait. But I'll let time sort it out I guess. I really don't need this right now >< And you didn't even answer, so I have no idea what to do.

Did I just let out too much? Please just understand, if you get this.

Bleh.

Today was Day 1 of the SBAB. I guess the agenda was pretty much just the CH-47 flight experience (Read: Joyride). But the morning already started off with a problem. I read the "Yishun" in Lucas' message as "Yio Chu Kang". Ended up waiting for 15mins with no one in sight. Didn't bring my phone so I had no way of contacting them. Bloody failshit. In the end made my way to AMK interchange to take 169, thinking all the way that it started at 8am, causing me to freak out. Nearly wanted to follow the NSFs, but thank God the uncle across me happened to tell me they were going to Yishun Camp instead. Made it to SBAB and saw Heer Tern there, who told me it only start at 8.30 -.- So in the end I sort of "pang seh-ed" them. Oh well. The CH47 ride itself was kinda fun, although I slept for a bit cos the wind there was awesome. But after that admin fail, cos we waited 3 hours for the bloody bus to come and bring us back through the camp. Slept for most of it. By the time we came out, 3.45 already and I had missed tuition. Blah, and to think I actually did my homework already. Hopefully tomorrow goes smoother.

And I still have sent Sir Goh my Pearce forms .____.

Good Night