Spec Course Day 2

Is it me, or do the CLTs suffer from schizophrenia or something. Yesterday scold like some dog, today start joking around. Wow, so much for discipline. To be brutally honest, HQ is screwed. CLTs want scold, also not scolding properly. Even admit that ''I thought yesterday I shout shout very scary, throw file on the floor, some more so drama''. Wtf. So your scolding is actually acting?! Win liao... Joke nvm, during serious stuff also joke. Then suddenly become so serious, obviously acting right. Scold, then turn around laugh with the other CLTs. These people are running spec course, but can't even lead properly.

Another gripe, AWARDS. First off, congrats to Wen Bin for getting Best In Trainfire. Awards are supposed to go to the best people, but what resulted was complete farce. Throughout the entire course, not once did the CLT ask for a volunteer, not even ONCE. How are you to determine those with initiative? Granted, I did not put in my best effort for Spec Course, but recognition should at least go to those who did. Like Ben Cheong the timer, shout so loud, enthu kia. In the end, not even a lick of anything. The CLT just pick the IC himself, then send that IC for the interview. Not enough people? Easy, just pick one person from RGS. Yes, I am jealous, but I'm not trying to initiate rivalry here. It's unfair to assume the superiority of RGS just because they won alot of awards before. The RGS girl that got nominated from my platoon didn't even really do anything, besides asking smart aleck questions. You can tell, just by her mannerism that she thinks she's very smart. The way she speaks gives off arrogant vibes. Not to discredit the award winners, but other people who put in effort should be given recognition as well, and also more opportunities for others to shine. In the end, snagged a 2SG :)

Leadership is, I believe, something inherent in everyone. The degree of effectiveness, however, differs from every individual. Leadership is not something you can teach, something you can say, ''Ok so you learn this today. Go home and mug'' Rather, the key is to develop leadership through experience. Give a person the opportunity, and if he wants to improve, with every opportunity he will hone his leadership skills. So much so that if anything happens, BAM, he knows what to do. That is how I feel leadership should be developed. The gauge of leadership is not how well you scold, or about ruling your men with an iron fist. The true indicator is the performance of your men, and whether they become better AS A PERSON because of you. Good leaders are effective, but great leaders INSPIRE. That should be the case.

Ahh, have to wake up damn early tmr to go SDC for last day of course. Still really happy bout my 2nd Sergeant haha.

Good Night.

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Spec Course Day 1

Gargh!!! *ragemax* Spec course is a joke, run by hypocritical douchebags.

''Do not bring camera handphones in, or you will be severely dealt with'' HA! What a joke! At least half of the CLTs brought in camera. phone, some playing iPhone some more. And don't come lecture us about standards when you keep spewing vulgarities left and right. ''Forgive me for my vulgarities'' Wah! Forgive you?! Bet you just saying that.so MIGHT look less bad.
Wow, role models indeed.

After that, scold people 1 second, next second start joking around with the other CLTs. The IC marching.us that time, go and mimic him. (Y)

Urgh, what's more, the tests were super guai lan. The GSK, none of our notes materials came out in the paper. Air prof, common sense, and aircraft recognition didn't even come out. Argh *wrings hands*

Then my hair they say I fail. I just freaking got it cut on Sunday. So just now cut it myself, look like a retard now -.-

Too depressed le,

Good Night

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Tricks and Stuff

HELL YEAH! \m/ Attempted my first successful trick with a kite today. Loop haha :) Not much but it's a start. Still too... traumatised to try a roll. The last time I did that, I had to change kite. Today's flying was quite fun actually. Although there was one time it was damn windy, then the kite was flying super erratically. Danial crashed his in the trees LOL. Had to ask the uncle to help us take down.

He climbed the tree.

Respect man. It was damn cool. Tried dogfighting with Danial, which led to a major scare. The plastic part for the motor mount broke from the carbon rod. Then my ESC was glued together. Lucky managed to scavenge another plastic part and another ESC. Then while Danial was helping me fix I tried to fix the rudder. Landed up burning and glue-ing my finger to the rudder. _|_ Lesson learnt indeed. Zhan Hong and Danial also tried this trick. Cos Zhan Hong built a mini-kite. So he put it on Danial's kite and launch it. Then Danial do a roll/loop and launch Zhan Hong kite. DAMN COOL sia. Haha Zhan Hong also tried taking Malay insults lessons from the Swiss Cottage peeps. Cacat.

Other then that, not much.

Compiling Spec Course notes like crazy now. Everyone's damn worried.

Good Night

The Dark Side

Of me. Which, frankly, I'm afraid of. Just doing some thinking, and it's kind of depressing. What I mean is, I'm actually a complete douchebag. And I'm not saying this to get sympathy or whatever, I'm saying this because deep inside me is an asshole. Come to think of it, I really don't know who I am. Kind of corny/cheesy, but I guess it's true. I try too hard to conform to other people, to try and make everyone happy. But the moments that scare me are the...how am I supposed to describe it? Heartless moments, I guess? I've discovered that I kind of just don't...feel anything anymore. Like I don't give shit anymore. You could be burning alive in front of me, and if it didn't directly affect me in any way, I could just sit there watching you. Urgh, welcome to my dark side. As in, I only help people cos if I didnt, others would think bad of me. Argh! Fuck! I have no idea why I do what I do. I mean, I really do want to help people. Just that sometimes I would just feel like... ''heck care'' FUCK MAN. I need help...I have no idea what to do with my life anymore.

Nvm

Tmr flying again \m/ Hope can practise more and get better quickly, NCC Day is next month already.

Good Night *tears hair*

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Short

Is what this post is gonna be. Or at I'll try, since there's still church tmr.

Today's AAWC today was awesome, kite flying was... woooooo! Although kinda pissed when I came. Cos I had to go church in the morning for the CDY Camp meeting. By the time get to HQ, nearly half the stuff on my kite gone le. Motor missing, carbon rod for the control surface, rudder, my transmitter... urgh. Took damn long to cannibalise from other old kites and then fix up again. Then done already, fly quite shuang. But someone ask me try roll. Result: Straight down 90° nosedive. The body tore, front tore off, motor mount broke as well. In the end just decided transfer everything to Kelvin's old kite, which was quite good actually, just that the carbon rod attachment to the control surface was quite loose. Still don't know why the kites cost like $400+ when, like Zhan Hong said, with some effort you can build the kite body yourself. Not like the stuff that hard to find, online should be able to find le. After that, reluctantly got pulled into a dogfight with Danial. Lol, dunno what's up with him and dogfights. Didn't crash though ^^

Left early to go to Godma Terri's birthday. Watched KFP 2 there, which was totally awesome. The epic quotes are endless :P

Other than that today, not much as well.

Good Night

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