And thus was Brom's fate to fail at everything except one.
A lot of things on my mind lately. People keep asking how's JC. And what am I supposed to tell them? Maybe it's not cos of JC, but I don't see a purpose in anything anymore. I wake up, I sleep. Everyday feels like a chore. That everyday I wish, and I dream. So I smile and tell them it's okay so far. That later it'll get tougher, but whatever. And I found myself dreaming again today, even though I told myself I wouldn't. Because when you just wish, but reality is completely different. And I just wanna say I get it. You tank the shit for other people, but who tanks the shit for you? The irony that the one person that can, now, is the exact same person that I can't. I wish that one day, it won't be too late. All I'm hoping for now is that everyone doesn't just fade away.
So we had PDS and FSD prelims yesterday. Really proud of the FSD people for doing as well as they did. It's really a good improvement from where we were a couple years ago. Though we lost to ACSI by 3 points. But even speaking from an unbiased from an unbiased viewpoint, I think our performance is nicer leh... I think it was our inspection that did us in. The opening and ripple line was really damn sui. Lol Javier kept going "OMG SO JIZZZZZ" like a siao. Ian took video of the "Iron Man" which was seriously damn cool when you watch it at 2x speed. Looking forward to the uploaded vids. Then again I also feel that it's really hard to change the mindset of people. Like for an established team, they automatically give a good impression alr, and all they have to do is live up to expectations to get good scores. Might not actually be the case lah, but it's just what I think. On the other hand, PDS. Sigh. Kinda disappointed in them, also considering we lost to ACSI Sea, even though we started PDS much earlier than them. Kudos to them for improving by leaps and bounds. Not to say our performance wssn't good, it sort of was. But deep inside I know - and I hope they know too - that that was not their true standard. Hopefully they learn from this and train even harder in the coming weeks. We really have a shot at Top 2 this time round.
Had to re-write the previous para cos it didn't get saved. Grrr
And I found out the kind of people that I absolutely loathe with a vengeance: attention seekers. Don't ask me why, I just really hate those kinds of people. So irritating. It's like, you want to be a douchebag or want to act cool, fine, just keep it to yourself. Ya lah, that kind of defeats the purpose of being an attention seeker, but in any case those people shouldn't be breathing our air. Oh well..
