School's been a really pleasant surprise so far. I signed up for only the WKW Orientation, and like to be very honest I had a not so good impression of the place, because I thought I wouldn't really fit in with the "type" of people here. I mean I still don't really, but at least I sorta realise it's not actually an issue that I would have to deal with. The first day was a really really weird thing for me because almost all the seniors were at the bus stop area screaming greetings to freshies that had just arrived (and I took a cab cos I didn't wanna wake up so early so it was extra weird cos they opened the door for me and shit) and my first thought was something along the lines of "well fuck". So I walk in an decide I'm gonna just see how it goes first, and the first person I meet is YING XIANG and oh my god. (Okay I'm gonna go full honesty here so if any of yall see this PLEASE DON'T BE OFFENDED I'm sorry I shouldn't be so judgmental) So ya my first impression was "knn this guy damn wayang why is he so friendly" (God damn I'm a fucking asshole) Also Vanessa spelled my name wrong twice but okay whatever. I think I sort of chatted with Jason/Peter mostly (the guys always stick together man) and yeah we went to play some games soon after. I actually put in effort to remember everyone's names sia and the game kinda helped also. That actually made me feel a lot more at ease for some reason, I guess cos I didn't really have much of that awkward moment where I would try to remember the person's name first before talking to them. Although, the OG seemed a little like quiet especially since I could hear all the other OGs doing cheers and stuff damn enthu. But okay lah, me being me I didn't really take the initiative to talk to other people that much early on, but I guess it was more so out of being comfortable by myself. It does stand a little in contrast to JC where my quietness stemmed more from a severe lack of confidence (which I still do lack but it's not as bad as before I think?). Very thankful to the 2 seniors Jia Yao (handsome-ass motherfucker) and Jess who sorta helped "facilitate" me in talking more to other people. Was really nice talking to those 2 in the early parts of camp. In a funny way I was sort of grateful for the school talks at the start also cos it meant less interaction LUL. But okay la I think once the official camp started after national day it got a lot better especially with all the games and stuff. I think seeing everyone doing stupid shit really did have a sort of bonding effect and we really weren't so concerned about outward appearances anymore. I think the most enjoyable/meaningful part of the camp was actually the nights we had in the chalet. Had some really nice talks with Jia Yao, Jess and Rachelle (idk I seemed to connect better with the other seniors during the camp), and we also played some Cards Against Humanity (thanks Peter for bringing a game I'm good at LOL). Played a really cool round of Werewolf on the second night as well, and went over to meet the people from Quentin, our sister OG. Finale night was Saturday and one of the most enjoyable experiences I've had. We worked really hard for the performance sketch (even though we were the most inaccurate regarding the murder mystery theme HAHA) and just had a lot of fun with it. Was super super hilarious also watching Peter and Ying Xiang go up for some of the games and I feel like at that time I really just let go a lot :P
I mentioned to Crystal how much I actually like it here, and that it does feel very similar in a way to VJC, except that know I guess I've come into my own enough to appreciate it. I really want to do well and be someone that I can be proud of after these 4 years. It sort of feels like I've gotten over the hurdle of learning what I really want to do with myself, so hopefully I can focus and achieve what I want to. There's also this other thing going on which I'm not really sure of, and I don't know what's going to happen but I'll just let things unfold I guess.
Good Night
(Dammit orientation really got this song in my head now)
And they be lining down the block
Just to watch what I got
