Parachutes

Wrote this down in my foolscap on Thursday but posting it now :P

You know how sometimes you feel like you mean something. It reminds me of this Reddit thread I read once. One of the comments was that "No matter how special you think you are, in the end you are no more different from the billions of people out there. That you are not, in fact, unique, just another person hoping for the best. And that after you die, nobody will remember you in a few years, and nobody will care." It was in reply to a thread on the hard truths that most people don't realise. I'm paraphrasing, but that was the general idea. How insignificant we all are, a speck of nothingness on the cosmic scale. To cease to exist one day and the change in the universe is no more different than an extra grain of sand washed off the beach into the ocean. Sounds pretty depressing/pessimistic but that's not the point I think. I guess all that I'm trying to say is that it sorta applies to a lot of things now, the important things at least. One tends to believe that you matter so much when in fact all you're doing is just joining the queue sometimes. Maybe it's just back to square one. I was kind of jokingly suggesting that instance, but I also knew it was gonna happen anyway. I'm more disappointed that the question was avoided, like you believed I can't handle it? And also maybe its too much to hope to consider myself for it too.

Boulderactive is (technically) and I'm definitely not prepared for it. The team I'm going with is Joey and Cheng Hong. Right now I'm the weakest out of all of us. My endurance now is really quite cui. The comp starts at 7.15 at freaking Suntec City ugh. Have to wake up damn early on a Sunday morning T.T Oh well, just going for the experience anyways, but I hope I don't let them down. After this, time to concentrate on promos. Even Nigel is getting his shit together lol :P

Went to watch Wolverine today with David, Jian Hui, Manfred and Ke Shang. Went all the way to NP just to meet them first lol. Stoned at the track and Elena came over hehe :D I guess Wolverine was okay. Like, the plot itself wasn't too bad, but in the overall scheme of things it was pretty random. The fight scenes were pretty cool though :P

Aish

Tomorrow, tomorrow you close your eyes. You pretend nothing is going on even though it'll be glaringly obvious. I once made myself a promise to never wish for the misfortune of others. So tomorrow, you keep quiet. You be happy because others are happy. Because you're too much of an idiot to say what you think, to the point nobody cares about it anyway. And though every single thing I've said so far is true, it doesn't change the fact that I hope the reason why is not because of anything or anyone else.

Good Night

Remembering this song again:)

She fell in love with someone else and thatShe fell in love with someone and that's all that I know for sure

Paintings

Well last Friday was awards night or something. Chionged back home to bathe first after training then went to school. There was supposed to be a rehearsal before the actual thing but I guess they just scrapped it :P Found SavingPrivateZhiMing and we were just more or less derping around and eating the food (we finished one basket of chips lol). Just talked and met up with other peeps like Daniel and Edwin. Saw Amanda Yap and wanted to go over to say hi but she left after I went around to find other people :( Oh well... So yeah, just talk cock for damn long before the actual thing started. The ceremony itself wasn't that interesting to be honest. Mr Lee was rambling on about Singapore's economy for like 15mins lol. Didn't get the relevance. Ze Bin was even sleeping LOL. Pretty uneventful overall. I think I prefer our service award though cos it was a plaque which was quite nice :D Felt a bit weird though. Receiving service award but everyone else in the hall were overachievers LOL. What top in English lah, 10A1s lah, English and HCL both A1 there... :P But, I'm still happy to be recognised, you don't get that everyday :) Collected photos plus went around taking a few before we left for home to get our stuff to book in. So yay, was a happy day in a sense, got to catch up (love it) with some bros and enjoy myself for a bit.

Booked in for modular Specs the next day. I was suddenly feeling extra nice for some reason (no idea why), felt kinda sorry for the NSFs doing weekend guard duty so I offered them my gobstoppers :D But they didn't want any :( They looked at me like I was a bit siao, so I turned to zebin and said "They think i siao one!" in front of them LOL. Which PROBABLY made them question my sanity even further. OH WELL. Zebin wanted to fly that night but we were all pretty tired so didn't in the end. Spent a bit stapling all the test papers together, and afterwards I folded a few paper origami owls before going to sleep :P Wanted to sleep in the admin room but the electricity kept going out so...

Mod Specs was quite hiong cos we were rushing to finish everything earlier and within the day too. Morning just normal in-processing and shit. Got told off for Iqbal for my hair. To be fair though, its not THAT long its just hella thick. Didn't really have the chance to go cut too since I was sick the previous 2/3 days. Nothing much for Specs since we were just running around so nothing that eventful happened. Nabil won the OIC election. To be honest I was supporting Zhan Jiang, but I guess in a lot of cases other factors come into play :( GGWP. Was freaking shagged after Specs. Went to Naked Fish with ZB, ZM and GAR WEI after that for dinner. After that had tauhuay out before going home:)

Felt kinda shitty the past few days. Really disappointed in a lot of people. Thought I was having some mental breakdown or shit. Definitely felt pretty weird at that point in time, but I've come to terms with it I guess. Everyone hides their own demons. But the thing I took away from all that, strangely, was to make me realise how I grateful and thankful I am to know those that actually matter to me :)

Good Night.

Maybe he won't find out but I will

You were the last good thing about this part of town