Made a montage over the last few weeks here if anyone wants to check it out.
Said this to a few people but I'll just repeat it here. "How was A levels?" To be honest I really, really don't care how I do for As. I was never motivated for it, just pressured by everyone else. So for me I guess it's kinda like if I do well good then, if I don't do well then I've already accepted it. Just gonna quickly run through it for now. I'm actually quite unsure about GP. I've never done that well for past years' compres and thus time round it seems the worst so far. On the flipside, the essay I wrote was one of the ones I'm happiest with. Helped that the school spotted roughly along the same idea for the mock exam so I retained quite a few points and managed to expound on them more easily. Math was a fuckin TERROR. Ohmygod. The first paper was like a goddamn prelim paper, and the 2nd paper was tricky as shit. Prepared to get a B, although I think an A IS possible. Still. Was hoping the paper would be better but what happened happened. Lit was decent overall. Extremely standard topics came out for P3, although P1 was pretty weird in terms of the phrasing of the question. Couldn't really formulate a good argument so I smoked a lot through the 2 text based. For Econs, personally felt the case study was pretty manageable even though a lot of people said it was difficult. Meh, I always can't really anticipate stuff for Econs so I'll just leave it as it is. Physics was actually pretty decent cos the paper rather easy I felt. Fell short on time for MCQ but overall I think an A isn't unrealistic. Then again, the bell curve might shift quite a bit because it was easier.
Been binging so much on anime since it all ended. Haven't had much to do at home if I'm not climbing. Not really going out a lot except maybe for a movie here and there. Been catching up on the Tokyo Ghoul manga, the first time I've ever bothered to try reading one. More of an animation kind of person rather than stills but the story's good enough to keep me going. Encountered my first "forced" anime in A Certain Magical Index. By "forced" I mean that it was kind of the first series I didn't really enjoy and had to push myself to finish simply because I didn't wanna drop my first series. The characters were really bland and the lack of a clear overarching plot was also a turnoff. The plot jumping from place to place also was pretty irritating. The only saving grace was Misaka Mikoto and Accelerator in the Sisters arc. The characterisation of those 2 was nice to see, and Misaka's a pretty cool chick too. Hopefully A Certain Scientific Railgun will be better since Misaka's the MC in that. Started on Spice and Wolf after that and was a welcome change. I'm a sucker for a good romance and this was it. Holo and Lawrence are like the cutest couple and they make me feel warm and fuzzy haha. Holo is astoundingly cute~~ Then again, if season 2 ends unfinished I'm gonna be so salty but apparently that's how it is. Guess I'll move on to the light novels if there's a hole in my heart after this. Would talk about SAO II but maybe another day, been ranting enough on anime already haha.
Just gonna leave a gif here
This is how the first Hunger Games should have ended (isn't this adorable)
Sigh
I knew this was gonna happen but to actually be feeling it now is something else. The post As nothingness is really... it sounds like a first world problem and honestly, I AM grateful that I'm not rotting away in a library everyday. But this emptiness hits hard when there's nothing else out there to look forward to. Army's in 6 months and even then I have no idea what I'm doing. That, and the loneliness is crushing. I think I'm beginning to understand old people feel. And I'm not even kidding. For me I guess you look around and it seems like paradise, but all you're doing is feeding the fruits to the people in it. Heck, just today I was counselling a guy I've never met and don't even know the name of about his recent breakup. It sounds so hypocritical, so PRETENTIOUS, to attempt to know what it's like. And I did it over the fucking League client. God. This is fucked up. I think God's watching though. Whitney sent a message just at the right time and I can't begin to express how much better that made me feel. People still do care, and it's nice to know, so thank you again :)
Hope my wrist heals by Friday. I miss climbing with the IPs
Good Night
I found a way
Over the fear and through the flames
