Bolts

WE'VE FOUND OURSELVES A HOME

Sigh. Why can't everything just all go well for once. When I feel happy about something then something else cocks up. And if I feel happy about something else then something will cock up. Why like that :/ Haish

I guess school been slowly getting better. Decided not be such a rock and actually talk to people. Even if it's complete bullshit LOL. Starting to realise how absolutely WEIRD my class is. Especially Ryan wtf. Still remember first few days of school he damn quiet always stick to Wei Xuan. Suddenly ah, he can spout so much nonsense during classes hahahaha. And Shirlene is like the mother of randomness man. Was queuing up for food and scrolling through 9gag and stuff. Saw this funny pic so I was chuckling to myself and OUT OF NOWHERE she's beside me asking "WHY YOU LAUGHING AT YOUR PHONE". LOLWUT. Lit lesson was completely retarded today (as usual, cos the timing sucks) and everyone was just DRAWING the most random things on the whiteboard. I think after a while even Ms Ho gave up so she just started drawing these owls on the whiteboard lololol. Speaking of lit, recalled Tues' lesson with Ms Chia being damn weird. Cos we were all joking about how Yi Hao hates life (Ok he doesn't but it comes close) and she suddenly got damn worked up! Like she started rambling on and oh about Godknowswhat. Something along the lines of maybe we just misjudged Yi Hao and stuff. After lesson all of us were just like "Dafaq?" Oh wells. Lit tmr is Waterland in the treehouse :D 

Climbing's getting more fun, even if it is kinda tiring. And finding out everyone's a bunch of misfits as well hehehe. Yesterday on the train Joey was like "Whoah that woman's boobs damn big like table" WTF. Then Jovan went to act like he was eating something off his chest. DAFAQ. He still can ask  me since when I so guailan de LOL. One of those few trainings without a flapper YAY ME but I couldn't complete a single route  yesterday FML >< Not even the girls route, though by then I was already just like "fuckit" hahahaha. 

If only things in school got better together with things outside.

I guess you could say that after awhile you realise that everyone's screwed up in one way or another and we're all in the same fucked up boat. Feel so helpless cos I can't do shit. Doesn't help that I can't get that incident out of my mind, even though it's practically nothing. Although I understood the significance behind it, and I somehow get the feeling that someone made the link too. Have to start thinking rationally all the time instead of during certain times. Cos somehow the similarity of what happened is quite scary. 

Can't do this fail at that. Weakling.  

Suddenly can't remember all the things I wanted to put into words. Ah well, a post for another day. 

Good Night. 

[Remembering loving her songs all those years ago. Might actually consider going for the concert]

Would angels sing with lollipops

Would dinosaurs cry? 

Legacy

So we had POP on Wednesday, or rather, the Part Ds POP. My part. The part I took for a year. The responsibility of teaching them to lead. And yet on Wednesday I felt an immeasurable sense of pride. And gosh, all the feels the night before. I guess everything just really reminded me of our own POP that year ago :') Sad, this year a lot of people couldn't make it for the POP :/ Haish, going separate ways... >< But was kinda lolling at the fact that got many female spectators for the Part Ds. All of them just standing at the sides then we went around asking them "Eh you whose one ah?" LOL. Hehehe imagined asking all the female spectators to gather then ask all the Part Ds to claim them :'D "Any item not claimed within 5 working days shall be donated to charity" Kekekekeke. YA so the actual parade was kinda messed up as well, maybe cos not enough practices plus all the new stuff. Proud to see the design of the NCO flag too. Glad I could leave behind something permanent for the unit :) After the POP they didn't throw the seniors though! Haiz, hope this tradition doesn't die out. Photo taking bla bla then had dinner with Saving Private Zhi Ming (Ironically without ZM), Heer Tern and 2 senior-senior-seniors Marcus and Justinian.

POP chalet was freaking retarded lol. I could only go after climbing trg so we reached there quite late as we had to buy some stuff as well. Reached the chalet and most of them were at the beach so we just ate some of the leftovers plus what Choon Hong and Osel were BBQ-ing also. Then went to find them at the beach. LOL Zhe Ming is damn siao one! He was freaking shouting at every single bloody thing. Then he go and sabo Zhi Ming and me so we both kena buried under the sand. Even Sir Kuah also not spared wtf. So yeah, kinda derped around a bit more before going back to the chalet. Played on a few laptops through the night.

I guess this paragraph would be dedicated to my part. After one year it feels like all of them are grown-up to me already. I was never a "parent" but I guess deep down there was that sense I guess, of having to nurture them. And though they might have given me a headache many times over, I have absolutely no regrets. Everything happens for a reason, innit? :) I remember being a bit sore about no getting what I really wanted, but I guess it turned out for the best. Taking them made me learn so much more about myself as well. And as such, I'm really proud to have had the opportunity to be their UDI. I will always remember that green board they scribbled on for my birthday back then, and the awesome pair of speakers that I use up to this day. The Man U tee and soccer ball they gave for my POP, and Jordan's model airplane :') All in all, it's that sense of emptiness all over again, but this time felt from the new seniors. But hey, life moves on, and I'm sure they will move on too. Together :)

CHSNCCAIR
PRIMUS INTERPARES

(Will post the video another day)

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Sigh sigh sigh

I don't understand. I've never been like that for the longest time, but it showed itself today. Fuckkkk. Why let something like this be so detrimental wtf. What's more is I definitely did not have this is consequence in mind. GRRRRR. I'm not gonna lose anyone to this kinda thing. But someone tell me what the fuck I'm supposed to do. When I saw I was just so... UGH. Like I understood, but just that. Yeah. Welp.

Just as things were starting to look up. Oh well.

Good Night