i've come to 12yrs old and im marvelling at the change that has come over me. remember primary 3? haha..."eww... its a girl..." remember now? lolz. im still trying to find myself. my REAL one. something i told jing yew the other day:
"ppl are themselves when they experience the emotion. i BECOME the emotion"
its complicated.
at 12, im struggling wif my feelings and my very self. i've put on a show too many times. i'd like to have some soul searching.
and something struck very deeply in me tday. most of you wont noe hu sean is. sean wong. (sean if u r reading this i hope everthing turns out ok.) the thing was, that he was crying. not to make fun but sean doesnt look that sort. he's alwys seems so happy... wif life, everything. im the total opposite. it made me realise that love is so dangerous. it can bring out the best in ppl, i agree. then agn, it cd destroy ppl too. wad i saw wasnt very comforting.
i mean, u see my frens. take a look. at some point or other they hav liked the opposite sex. hans for example. i've had frens who wished catholic high was mixed sch. but im not so despo lah. it isnt the looks. its the personality. looking back now, i've made some stupid moves, revealing part of who i really might be. i try not to show myself, try to conceal it as best as i can. then agn, ppl screw up. reflecting, i might actually have a crush. but im not even sure myself
so thats my spastic life. stay spastic!
crazychewie
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