Emptiness

I guess it isn't helping that I don't have anyone to talk to right now to distract me. Suddenly thought of the lyrics to The Click Five's Empty. Old song, and slow as well. I don't usually go for slow songs, but hey, this one makes an exception :) "We're empty..."

Which is kinda how I've been feeling the past week or so. Actually, confusing, more than anything. I guess posting on Facebook temporarily releases the stress of life, but then again, doesn't really help much. I'm not making sense right now, am I? Gosh, I think I honestly might be going a little crazy right now, bottling everything up inside. Time bomb much? I have no idea what's going to happen when it does explode. Recalling another memory now, and of all things from Madagascar. "Just smile and wave boys, smile and wave..." And isn't that all I can do now? Writing all this off the top of my head now. I guess isn't that where we reveal the most of our humanity (or lack thereof?)

"Y'see, in their last moments, people show you who they really are" The Joker (The Dark Knight)

And I guess the world really is going to hell. Not just for everyone, but I guess to certain extent, me too. Is it right, to wish misfortune on others solely for yourself? Probably most people would've answered "no". On the other hand, is it wrong to fight for yourself, for what you believe in and want, and think that you deserve? Rephrasing does have the effect of mindfucking most people.

Doesn't help that the other person is like a brother to me.

Am I giving too much away? Mm, maybe. But then again, doing it has a rather cathartic effect. Although I seriously have no idea what's happening to me.

Can't wait to grow up and clear all the stupid shit from being a teenager out of my system. It'd be nice to forget everything once in a while.

Just thought of NCC. Then again, I don't think that'd be too surprising. I guess I love it so much is cos it just focuses your mind on one thing, whether it's coordinating the drills, or putting your next foot forward doing PT. Really let's you dive into another world of timings and physical endurance. Kinda distracts you from all the shit. Then like cold water to the face, training ends, and you're slammed headfirst into reality.

God help me, I'm really confused right now. I don't know whether to laugh or cry at the joke that is my life

Good Night