Ghosts

Bah, everyone's gone, more or less. I guess I shouldn't be angry, cos you must have your reasons. And I guess I have no right to know either. I just hope I can count on you when the time comes. That you aren't wondering off emotionally volatile when I need your help. So hey, I'm just gonna keep my mouth shut. *zips* Believe me, even though it doesn't seem like it. I think a lot before I say anything. So hey, if I've been maintaining this facade for God-knows how long, shouldn't be a problem now

Is it my SIM card, or is everyone just dao-ing me. But Ian and Jerevis managed to reply. so I guess it's the latter :/ It's like everyone's just left me to die.

Am I scared of what might happen? I guess so. It sounds like you've given up. And you've never seemed that way before. Is it my fault? I guess so. Although I swear I never meant to lead you on. But hey, even involuntary manslaughter is a crime. So I guess the guilt lies with me. Please just know that I also have no idea what to make out of this. I told myself that I wouldn't. But will I enforce it? Right now I don't even know whether to ask you to wait. But I'll let time sort it out I guess. I really don't need this right now >< And you didn't even answer, so I have no idea what to do.

Did I just let out too much? Please just understand, if you get this.

Bleh.

Today was Day 1 of the SBAB. I guess the agenda was pretty much just the CH-47 flight experience (Read: Joyride). But the morning already started off with a problem. I read the "Yishun" in Lucas' message as "Yio Chu Kang". Ended up waiting for 15mins with no one in sight. Didn't bring my phone so I had no way of contacting them. Bloody failshit. In the end made my way to AMK interchange to take 169, thinking all the way that it started at 8am, causing me to freak out. Nearly wanted to follow the NSFs, but thank God the uncle across me happened to tell me they were going to Yishun Camp instead. Made it to SBAB and saw Heer Tern there, who told me it only start at 8.30 -.- So in the end I sort of "pang seh-ed" them. Oh well. The CH47 ride itself was kinda fun, although I slept for a bit cos the wind there was awesome. But after that admin fail, cos we waited 3 hours for the bloody bus to come and bring us back through the camp. Slept for most of it. By the time we came out, 3.45 already and I had missed tuition. Blah, and to think I actually did my homework already. Hopefully tomorrow goes smoother.

And I still have sent Sir Goh my Pearce forms .____.

Good Night