Hope and faith

Because isn't that what everyone clings to?

She points through the hole into the dark throat of the diseased landscape.
''I think you're more dangerous than what's out there''
''Well, little girl,'' he says, ''that's a funny thing you just uttered. Because I was just not thinkin the same thing about you''

That's from The Reapers are The Angels. Not the most nicest book to me, but definitely one of the most impactful. I guess I can relate a lot to Temple. I think one day if there ever is a zombie apocalypse, I just might turn out like her. Except I don't hope to end up like her at the end of the book, six feet under. She understands who she is and loathes herself all the more for it. She does what is required, but loves and hates it at the same time. The profound-ness of it all really hits home. Struggling and struggling against a desolate world and yourself. They say your greatest enemy is yourself. How true..

There is no such thing as good people, just people who don't do evil.

I was hoping I wouldn't have to dwell on any more of such unpleasantries, but seeing as how school is so sian... well...

At least we have an extended recess. I appreciate the move, but I don't think it's good. I don't know why, but the easiest explanation I can give is that it's not fair when other schools only have like 20mins. That's not really why I dislike it, but I dunno... it just feels... wrong. Like wasting too much time.. Well at least Mr Ng does a good enough job. Although I do miss both Mrs Lim and Mr Teo. Such epic teachers.. and Mr Thomas seems okay too.. hope I survive.

I think I suspected it early enough. And although I was hoping otherwise... well fate had something different planned. Emotions are a funny thing aren't they? It's things like these that make me glad I didn't acquiesce. I'm not gonna rip someone apart just to stall my own self-destruction. You'll never get it, no one ever does. All I can say is you just need to close yourself up for awhile an flush out the demons in your mind. Cleanse yourself then starts anew. The world has always succeeded through trial and error. If you keep harping on the same mistake, you're a fool who's getting yourself nowhere. Just hurting yourself.

I think I'll try writing a book. After all the post-apocalyptic stories, I have some ideas... just something to destress me when I have free time..

Good Night.

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