Warning Shots

Scumbags, what some people are. Hypocritical, narcissistic, idiots. Some people need to grow a pair and learn how to be a normal, civilised human being. Acting like a woman and a kid all at once. Vent your insecurity on other people.

Some people.

Cos that's what you are innit? Just an insecure loser who takes things overly seriously in an attempt to show your ''badass''-ness. Pfft. More like idiotic and compulsive. Think you know how to play the game. Trying so hard to win. Getting on popular people's good sides with your round of drinks. Treating people beneath you like shit. So obviously just another jerk conditioned by your constant worry of being viewed as weak and nobody. That's why you joined also right? Cos you want to feel some measure of security over your ''achievements''. Trying to imitate the societal perfect person, and if that fails, attempting to use your ''advantage'' to put people down.

Ok enough ranting.

But wait! I wonder what kind of SG we will grow into... everything expensive as heck now. At least in sch, can't really feel the brunt of it. But when enter workforce? Haiz. My dream job seems harder and harder to attain with each medical checkup. Bloody hell. And if that fails, then how? My fallback isn't really viewed well by most people. Read the blog post by the MRT driver. And also just now watching the news. Agh. Trying to solve our ageing population by bringing in MORE foreigners. Which will lead to less/worse job prospects for SGeans. Which will discourage us from having families. Govt don't get it. Thinks throwing money and incentives will solve the problem. Thinks making us ''useful'' to foreigners will help. Ya, it does. That's the only thing we can rely on anyway. But who reaps the benefits? Not the middle-lower class. Hell no. IRs earning so much, so many MNCs in SG. But what happens? Rising prices for US, because MAS wants to keep us a lucrative option for THEM. *facepalm* and without the sufficient pay increase in median income to account for.

Whatever. 4.8% inflation, _l_

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Send In The Clowns

Don't bother, they're here. Scumbag brain is scumbag. I have no chance at all, causing it to be annoyingly hard to concentrate now. No chance. Repeat again. Zzz History test next Friday and still haven't internalise Kit B. Screwed. Mind wandering off. Need more time in the Room. Sort things out.

No distractions.

I know kinda late lah, but Affirmation Ceremony was like 2 Saturdays ago? Gosh. Day before was rehearsals, which was kinda screwed for us, in any case. A lot of mid-airs. Which happened to be caused by a certain *cough*Danial*cough* Then Commandant damn bu shuang, ask us change song again cos Arrival To Earth's quality was sucky. So we had to re-choreo and hardcore train until like 10.30 at SIS, then all went Bishan J8 for dinner at Pastamania. Haiya, should have just suck all the DC's money lol! Next morning reported slightly later, around 9.30 instead. Had a full round of rehearsals, which included yet another mid-air. Then Commandant told us off, threaten to take out our performance (read: 2.5months of training) if we cannot guarantee audience safety. So while everyone go eat lunch we all train around 2 times to prepare. Then just wait for actual thing. Can see the first few units start streaming in, heart beat multiply liao lol. So yeah, stood by the side to watch before our segment. Came our turn, Daniel led a short prayer, during which I found out he's another denomination. But doesn't matter, a topic for another time. Went on stage, people cheered like crazy... cos they turned off the lights hahaha! During which they swung their lightsticks around like madmen. Launch was ok, although I did stall launch. But recovered and joined the rest. Synchro was the most scary, especially coming out of the low pass. But everyone followed their flight path, so it was fine. Landing that time we somehow accidentally staggered it in order, me --> Danial --> Daniel --> Ying Wei. So had a nice effect. After that, wah happy day liao! Finale finish all go pack up. Stupid stupid stupid me can forget to take my dust cover :(((( they still haven't found it I think :'( Went to Gan Eng Seng Sec after that to fly. I think that was the most fun. Don't need care, just spam stunts. The mass stall turn was sexyyyy. Funny thing, SIS so big, so many mid-airs. GESS around a tenth of the size and half the height, no problems. Reached home at like 11.30 that day. Bathe, sleep liao, wake up early next morning for church :P

So that week was kinda weird as well. Went to watch Mirror Mirror on Wednesday with Marcus, President Ho, Maths Wang and Al-lose. Not a good movie, but cute and fun to watch lah. Friday went to see Battleship with ZB, XB and Ian. Definitely entertaining, the Vfx were awesomeeee! So much more coherent than Transformers.

Went for TWO weddings next day. Served one in the morning, attended my mother's cousin's in the evening. Weddings really make you think alot. Do you think anyone'll make me their Best Man? Hahahah I'll prolly be the half-drunk one shouting stupid things like ''Kiss again! Longer!'' Together with Ze Bin. Lucas, we're betting on you;) Although that time I was just mostly thinking of the food. I seem to eating, or at least be more hungry, the last few days :P

A wise man said, only fools rush in. I'll find you again one day, just need some sorting out right now.

Whoo! Air Knights 2012 <3

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Public Relations

It's a funny thing, PR managers. Not the ones in companies or organisations. It's the ones inside our brain, the ones that tries to raise the profile of our ''good deeds'' to improve the opinions people have of us and so improve the impression we give and ultimately climb the societal ladder. Even if it's not true. And the thing that got me thinking about this is the picture that's making it's rounds on FB now. Of the group of students and the foreign workers. The hypocrisy of people is appalling. Many people probably don't give 2 shits about foreign workers. Yet when suddenly everyone starts spreading the photo they join in the chorus with things like ''everyone shd be like them'' or ''they're humans too!''. There are enough examples. Kony suddenly miraculously turned everyone into a social activist overnight. Wow, a video on Youtube really changed your outlook on life didn't it? Not only this example, but many others also. Not saying that everyone is like that, some ppl are really sincere. But just wait, the hypocrites will jump on the bandwagon and show themselves eventually. Not just confined to hypocrisy. The sheer stupidy of people also. The racist poly student, the idiotic NUS china scholar. Yesterday scrolling through the New Feed and seeing posts along the lines of ''wah if only SG really got tsunami!'' And I'm like ''The shit is wrong with you people'' Even if you say as a joke, it's still bloody insensitive. Why don't you try going Indonesia or Sri Lanka and say that. I'll welcome home your box.

Agh, people be stupid.

Yesterday also had some talk by this guy Simon Tay. Keep thinking it's Steven Tay lol! Then got this guy come and freaking BOOTLICK sia. Felt nauseous hearing it. But then the NUS-Yale conundrum came up. Which is actually quite a tricky topic. Hmm... sekali O Level come out. Reminded me of the argument I had with one of CHS alumni studying in US now. Argument, not debate, becausw I don't remember condescending tones being used on the other party as a ''debate'' Tsk. Your FB info says your from Malaysia. Still want scold SG and defend US so fervently. Pfft, bet you liked being part of the minority race in Malaysia. Talk so much. I guess maybe he's so resentful about lack of FOS in SG is kinda becos of the Malaysian experience. Like being Chinese there, I guess there's a lot more of restrictions on what you say. Even if you get it out, doesn't mean you're heard or heeded. But hey, SG's not like that, I believe. Yes, you can say we are a benevolent dictatorship. But hey, it's worked well. If we defended racism and homophobia using FOS, that would totally defeat the purpose, wouldn't it? Maybe in Malaysia, or the examples he brought up like Norway or Sweden (I think), speaking out is not so dangerous because there's a majority there. Like if a Malay insulted Chinese, not like the Chinese can fight back. Let the government settle more peacefully lor. And no Chinese in his right mind would insult Malays, especially in Malaysia. So maybe FOS in these countries is more relaxed. And FOS is not just social, but political as well, which thus allows more criticism as a result. And maybe that's why he resents the controlled environment here. Only thing I can say is, nothing nice to say, don't say. I'm still learning, so you can point out where I'm wrong, this blog post included if anyone has objections.

And as for Yale, they pass a resolution ''to show concern regarding civil rights in SG'' The points are valid, but don't you think it's kinda weird coming from the country which still hasn't shut down Guantanamo? By the same principle, Yale should ''express concern'' to their own government as well. Not that I've heard anything on that note so far.

Oh well...

Not in the mood for much now. Looking at Crescent Girl's Prelim paper this afternoon and thinking ''I'm screwed for Prelim 2''

Primus Interpares

Good Night.

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Impedence

Mindfuck, last few days, frustrating. Chionging back and forth, here and there. Slightly regretting, but hopefully it's still worth it. There's so little to work for now.

Chalet was awesome. When we got there everyone was waiting and like throwing sweets and balloons. So we went upstairs and we received our gifts, which were damn nice. Haha Lucas' and Ze Bin's bears were damn cuteeee. Lol the Man U ball was damn cool :D In the end, hardly ate any dinner, landed up hardcore-ing soccer. Played from like 7 to 11, until the uncle pass us a notice to lower our volume. Went up and they were still playing Blackshot. Played with them for a while, then felt kinda tired so I went sleep. The rest also slept soon after cos apparently that's the time all the zai kias play, and they were getting pwned. Lucas planned to get everyone watch sunrise next morning, but then it was raining. Such a cockblocker. Go breakfast also so troublesome. Had prataaaaaa! So nice lol, but the rain, as usual, such a dampener. After I chionged home to get my stuff and go HQ... in the end commandant didn't come lor. But at least I managed to fix up my light circuit properly. I swear, light circuits are the bane of my life.

Ah well, actually there's not much. But my G8 results should be coming out soon... nervousssss.

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Next Chapter

I still think it hasn't sunk in, the fact that POP has passed. Maybe it will this Friday. Actually come to think of it, it's probably the other way round, and I've fully accepted it. Either way, I feel rather calm thinking about. The transition period was definitely smoother this year.

I've spent probably around half my secondary school life doing N Air stuff. It's become so ingrained already. Right now I can't imagine not having the air store to slack in. Agh where am I going to keep my stuff .____. It occupied so much of my energy.... and now I am no longer part of N Air. Even if I come back as a CLT I'd be under HQ. There are many regrets during my before and during my term, but it's too late now. All I can hope for is that I made the right choices which could help now. I really hope and pray that I (we) didn't make a mistake when we chose you. Now you're nothing but a shadow of yourself. You changed much too soon and I'm worried. I see past photos, photos of the real you, the you who tried his best to maximise what he had. Now you retreat into a shell. Oh well.

We'll just have to wait and see.

I guess this past 4 years is something I will truly never forget. A watermark on my soul.

Now I'm lost for words. Agh. But you get the idea. It feels rather hollow now.

So there was HBL today. Me, Ian, Lucas and Xiang Bin went Nibez house to do. So stupid, I didn't bring charger. 3hrs in my notebook runs out of juice. Pfft, whole HBL land up just spamming/stalking people lor. All crazy... gosh Nibez mom is so cute lol, so smiley :D

I'm too tired liao... maybe I'll continue tmr

Primus Interpares

Good Night

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