Spirit

VJ BOLEH

Easily one of the most epic and inspiring things I've seen in my life. The sheer determination, the deafening roar of the crowd, the absolute hilarity which came after because we couldn't believe what happened. And I guess this is what I really needed after so long. Spirit. Something to cheer about. It kinda only struck me after I got home and I was damn happy so I told my mom "YEAHHHH DOUBLE CHAMPIONS". And she went "So? Also not you playing?" That's when I realised that no, I wasn't playing. But it wasn't just their vjctory to rejoice in. It was something EVERYONE could be happy about about. Because that's what a school means too. Everyone was in it together. Truly, truly one of the most amazing things that I have witnessed with my own eyes. Literally down by a goal for the WHOLE game. In the last HALF a minute we break even. Holy sheets, you can imagine the uproar from our side :D The extra time each team played rather passively so nothing much after that. Then came ze penalty shootout. I was just like "Cmon Gugan, cmon Gugan save that shit". 1-1, 2-1, 3-1, 3-2, and finally 4-2. Gugan saving their last shot BAM. HERE COMES THE PITCH INVASION. Hahahaha wanted get the class to carry up Gugan but the Hockey team beat us to that :P Everyone was just going MAD and like cheering and VJ BOLEHHHHH VJ BOLEHHHH. WHATUP. HOHOHOHO. But to be fair, ggwp to the Raffles peeps, they really played damn well also, especially their goalkeeper, without whom we would have had a much easier time. So yeah, just damn damn damn damn damn happy. FULL DAYYYYYYYYYYYYY. Finally found out what I've been missing. The strength of spirit. The camaraderie. The joy. This is what people talked about all along, and I finally experienced it.

Finally

Went to watch Othello with Ernest, Michelle and Crystal after that ^^ Ernest's mom was damn nice and fetched us alllllll the way to Fort Canning from Sengkang. Lolling at Michelle singing along like mad in the car. It's time to begin, isn't it~~ Ya so we reached there kinda late, like right before the play was about to start. There was like this SEA of people so we had to make do with a spot near the back. Though it wasn't too bad because we weren't that far from the stage in the end. Glad I could manage to catch majority of what was happening (even having not finished reading the whole thing LOL) We ordered Macs during the intermission also and we just happily chomping away during the 2nd half of the play. (Just realised I forgot to pay Crystal back for the food WOOPS). Damn funny one part Michelle just like KNOCKED OUT during one of the scenes trololololol. Ya so after everything just pretty much went home, which was kinda late. Didn't do most of my work that night so I'm swamped for the weekend but OH WELL SHIT HAPPENS.

Definitely one of the best days of my year so far:)

The cast (The set is really cool btw) 

Not even looking properly at the camera LOL

Good Night

To an amazing Hockey team

This one's a fighter :)

Boxes

Gonna random a few stuff since nothing major really happened over the past few days. But first, some things for Fergie :) 

Come to think of it though, I kinda regret not really following this season more closely. Distractions from the computer are a bitch. Would I have watched more games knowing this was his last season? Possibly. But that's over now. I remember when I started to follow football back in Primary 5. My dad was watching a game and I got interested in it. I recalled having this Man U tee shirt my grandma bought when I was damn young (Can't believe I still remember this lol). And from there I decided I would support them :) Kind of a stupid reason, but hey, I was P5, and look how Man U turned out that year :D What a year. From there, the sheer thrill of watching such an epic team was really just. Even after that defeat to City during a certain season *cough*huh who's Mancini?*cough* after which many people said it was the end, I guess I hoped and knew that it wasn't really. Way to show them how to come back this season :) And in the end, all this was possible mainly due to Sir Alex. So for 893 wins, 337 draws, 267 losses in your 26 years, 38 trophies, 13 League titles, 2 Champions Leagues, 5 FA Cups and 4 League Cups. For that amazing rivalry with Jose Mourinho which no one will forget soon. For "knocking Liverpool off their fucking perch". For everything else. Thank you Sir Alex. You have left your legacy in this legendary club :)

Gawd it's been so bloody humid and hot the last few days ugh. It's like a freaking sauna now sia. 

I think that maybe I intentionally left it there cos. I don't want to give myself away. I don't want to destroy what I already have. Ironic isn't it. I just don't have any more words I guess. And all that would be left is an awkward attempt to continue? Maybe. I'm scared of what might happen if I just caved in again. Because I can't concentrate. And all that I want to do is interrupted by that distraction of. You think I'd be able to handle it by now. 

On the other hand, I know what's happening. But what would you have me do?

Good Night

Just take a breath and let it go

Soup

Nothing much for today.

Had NAPFA 2.4 run on Monday which actually went better than expected. Was planning to train like everyday last week to prepare for it. Land up Monday got match so paiseh to run. Tuesday forgot my PE. Wednesday and Friday had training. Can't remember Thursday though. So in the end I guess I just wasted my life away yet again the whole week. Though somehow I'm able to do fine in the actual thing every year. Mental push, huzzah. Heck yeah got mah 28 pts woohoo. Screw SBJ, that's just shit LOL. But it was kinda funny also cos they set up this "water point" which was this poor guy just standing there with a hose and spraying the runners with water as they ran past. Wah after that I really burn already. Just like, collapsed and died right there.

*Thinking...*

A poor spirit

Oh yeah last Saturday went LAN with the Pubstompers too :D Sigh, really miss those times destroying teams 5v5 with them LOL. Oh well we dominated the games that day so I came out feeling kinda happy. Just managed to forget a lot of shit and just well, PLAY. Here's to many more victories (Y) Went to watch Iron Man 3 (again) but this time with SPZM ^^ Although since I was too lazy to go home I just went to the library first. Tried to find some good books but couldn't really find any. Didn't have any titles in mind so I just found some place and started to read wiki articles. I swear advanced Physics is damn cool leh too bad the ones learning now cannot make it already LOL. If only I could make a living off learning my whole life. Oh well ended up sleeping a bit before going to meet the rest for dinner first. Watching again then I start noticing all the hints and foreshadowing in the earlier part of the movie which was kinda cool as well. Oh god Iron Man 3 is really so good I just can't agh.  Really hope RDJ continues to play Tony Stark, partly also cos he seems to BE Tony Stark. Iron Man/The Avengers movies just wouldn't be the same without him... Can't wait  for the next few superhero movies, though Avengers 2 is like 2 years away. HAISHHH...

We create our own demons

Feeling kinda at a loss the last few weeks. Used to have things and people to look forward to but *cough*certain people*cough* screw up so oh well. Everyone seems to be drifting :/ Remember last year? The nights spent in the field. Enduring a billion mosquito bites to see the lights we danced in the sky. I wonder how everyone's doing... It's not just that, it's. People. Ah well, I guess there's still some stuff coming up. Gonna be absolutely dead this holiday.
Can't help that feeling of not being able to match up. I delude myself using terms and words which in the end. Hopeless foolishness, but I've made up my mind. Maybe after a while. Maybe after comfort sets in. Maybe when I stop being such a weakass shit. In the meantime, no point wanting more. What can half an army do against the might of 2?

Photograph and White Tulips

"Far better it is to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs, even though checkered by failure... than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy nor suffer much, because they live in a gray twilight that knows not victory nor defeat" - Theodore Roosevelt

Good Night

Cause that would drive me crazy

Contentment

So last Saturday we had our SLV. Honestly as the AC Rep I thought it was gonna be damn screwed, seeing as how a lot of stuff was quite rushed de. But I guess it sort of mashed together somehow in the end and it was kinda fun too :) Although from the beginning you could sorta see the dark clouds looming (Literally. I'm so funny. Ha.. ha...). YA so we had to hold the activity in school cos it was sorta raining. Although thinking back now it was better that we held it in school, cos we had the AV system, tables and chairs (and aircon) which were really useful for carrying out the whole thing. And and and I was late T.T Scumbag weather decided to stop raining as heavily also just when I entered school. WHATEVARRRR... so YEAH we sort of just prepared the stuff until the elderly reached the school. Lolling at Crystal trying to speak Chinese and one of the elderly had to correct her hehe then again I'm no better so I more or less just cringed at the idea of me speaking instead hahaha. Blah blah we sand some of the songs which went surprisingly okay. Somehow everyone decided not to be a spoilsport and just act like awkward retards together :D And at least the old folk were patronising enough to sing along too ^^ OH Ryan's turned out to be a damn cool guy too. He was kinda facetanking all the talking and entertainment, going so far as to doing some taiji stuff too. Props to him for that :) Even Weixuan did some damn cool flips LOL. Wish I could do that :P *fail backflip* Games and stuff happened, basically the mini-bowling thing which the old folk enjoyed too. At the end Hazel and Joey did some dance for the seniors too. And and and before they left we brought them around to see the guzheng performance practices and the harmonica band too. So I guess overall the SLV thing was kinda cool cos could see our class really starting to act like one. Not forgetting the retarded performance by Gugan at the end too LOL :'D

NAPFA was on Monday. Actually nothing much to say. Set a personal challenge to myself to get A for the 5 stations except maybe SBJ, but still try to get A for that one. I guess I (Sorta?) met it, cos apparently my pull ups aren't legit o.O Like cannot jerk/use momentum at all, which is what I've been doing all along. But the teacher at that station was really nice and decided to give me the benefit of the doubt so yayyyyyy :D And I thought that it was better to do shuttle run in the hall barefoot so now I have this annoying blister to show for it and there's climbing training with THOSE SHOES UGH. 2.4's next week. Aiming for a B but I haven't been training AT ALL so we'll see I guess :P 

Power corrupts, absolute power corrupts absolutely. At first I believed in your honest wanting to help. But then someone mentioned "maybe he just knows how to play his cards right". And after a few of things you've said I'm starting to doubt as well. Fact of the matter is that you're actually really capable, but whether you use the power you have now responsibly is another question though. I guess time will tell.

And I believe that I've made up my mind. Maybe it's true, some things are better left unsaid. Kinda afraid of a Midas touch effect, but then you kinda realise a lot of things are based on perception. Choose to be happy, choose to be content :) 

Just wanna say, thanks though. Because everyone gets a little unsure sometimes. 

Grateful 

Good Night

But I think I'll be alright

Bolts

WE'VE FOUND OURSELVES A HOME

Sigh. Why can't everything just all go well for once. When I feel happy about something then something else cocks up. And if I feel happy about something else then something will cock up. Why like that :/ Haish

I guess school been slowly getting better. Decided not be such a rock and actually talk to people. Even if it's complete bullshit LOL. Starting to realise how absolutely WEIRD my class is. Especially Ryan wtf. Still remember first few days of school he damn quiet always stick to Wei Xuan. Suddenly ah, he can spout so much nonsense during classes hahahaha. And Shirlene is like the mother of randomness man. Was queuing up for food and scrolling through 9gag and stuff. Saw this funny pic so I was chuckling to myself and OUT OF NOWHERE she's beside me asking "WHY YOU LAUGHING AT YOUR PHONE". LOLWUT. Lit lesson was completely retarded today (as usual, cos the timing sucks) and everyone was just DRAWING the most random things on the whiteboard. I think after a while even Ms Ho gave up so she just started drawing these owls on the whiteboard lololol. Speaking of lit, recalled Tues' lesson with Ms Chia being damn weird. Cos we were all joking about how Yi Hao hates life (Ok he doesn't but it comes close) and she suddenly got damn worked up! Like she started rambling on and oh about Godknowswhat. Something along the lines of maybe we just misjudged Yi Hao and stuff. After lesson all of us were just like "Dafaq?" Oh wells. Lit tmr is Waterland in the treehouse :D 

Climbing's getting more fun, even if it is kinda tiring. And finding out everyone's a bunch of misfits as well hehehe. Yesterday on the train Joey was like "Whoah that woman's boobs damn big like table" WTF. Then Jovan went to act like he was eating something off his chest. DAFAQ. He still can ask  me since when I so guailan de LOL. One of those few trainings without a flapper YAY ME but I couldn't complete a single route  yesterday FML >< Not even the girls route, though by then I was already just like "fuckit" hahahaha. 

If only things in school got better together with things outside.

I guess you could say that after awhile you realise that everyone's screwed up in one way or another and we're all in the same fucked up boat. Feel so helpless cos I can't do shit. Doesn't help that I can't get that incident out of my mind, even though it's practically nothing. Although I understood the significance behind it, and I somehow get the feeling that someone made the link too. Have to start thinking rationally all the time instead of during certain times. Cos somehow the similarity of what happened is quite scary. 

Can't do this fail at that. Weakling.  

Suddenly can't remember all the things I wanted to put into words. Ah well, a post for another day. 

Good Night. 

[Remembering loving her songs all those years ago. Might actually consider going for the concert]

Would angels sing with lollipops

Would dinosaurs cry?