Help

Today was my first violin lesson in about a month. 1 whole month. And I probably practised only 4 or 5 times in that month. Wonderful. I was praying she wouldn't scold me. Landed up the whole lesson basically she going through the new scales format. And cause I actually bothered to learn the new scales also, at least she wasn't so pissed. Yay... but she did scold me cause it was quite crappy also... lucky we didn't have time for pieces, or I would've been royally screwed.

Fuckit, my mom just started scolding me out of the blue for leaving my notes on the table. Wtf. And then since she got nothing else better to do, go and find something else to be mad at me about. Apparently putting my violin case next to the door instead of behind it is a crime, which promptly got it thrown out of the room. Yes, THROWN. And she complains that I always don't take care of it. Well, at least it was in the case before she threw it. But still.... sigh. Hooray....

Pfft.

After that I went for church to serve my weekday duty. Was wondering why it was different from the mass in sch this morning... oh well. I just suddenly got a feeling to stay back after mass. So I did. I found a pew near the back and knelt down. What happened next, even I don't know why. I just cried and poured out everything in my mind. And the only thing I kept repeating was ''God help me''. I think I must be going crazy... then Isaac and Alfred started locking up church, so I finished up my hysterical prayer and left. Although I did feel calmer after that :) God's a good listener.

Agh, come home just stone on FB. Couldn't be bothered to start on chem. I managed to finish History before mass started. Maybe I'll go refresh it now before I sleep.

Good Night

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