Everything

I need to get this out and type something before I go mad. It's getting worse and worse wtf I thought it would get BETTER. I thought I thought goddamn wrong about this whole thing. It just feels like there wasn't an end. It wasn't a conclusion. But it was supposed to be, in a sense. No finality. No change, just a revelation. And this is what someone told me long ago. That yeah it hurts like a bitch but you take that shit and move the fuck on. Maybe I just need to wait for it to clear out first. Not thinking properly for a lot of things now. Or maybe I just need some sense of normalcy now. Because this isn't normal it feels so goddamn tense I swear. I need to clear this, and listen to someone who knows their shit. Everything is fucking swirling now I really don't know I don't know already. I feel like banging my head over and over against something lol. I'll just go talk to the Da Jie boss tomorrow or something and find out what the heck is going on. I hope I reach the day when I can not care as much but right now I simply can't.

Good Night

So wake me up when it's all over

When I'm wiser and I'm older