Glass

Y

So we had OP on Thursday. Something funny the day before was that I was the only one who had OP on Thursday and went for training on Wednesday :P Like I know Jas and Jovan had OP on Thursday also and they didn't come but I was just like: aiya not as if I'd do anything better with my time. LOL. After missing so many Friday trainings already, got pretty weak after a while. Had some trouble with the routes, but overall it was kinda okay lah I guess. Managed to get the dymo move after Nich talked to us about how we should do it. But was quite inconsistent with it so I think it was actually tyco hahahaha. Jovan tried that route today and he managed to get it :P Training today was suuuuper hiong omg. Not the training itself but the PT after that was whatttttt. Like it was super core everything wtf. Couldn't feel my abdomen after all the shit. Oh and each of us got a resistance band! It's damn cool and used for training to back muscles and stuff. Then MATTHIAS HAHAHA. Cos the resistance band is made out of rubber latex right, when we opened them first thing he said was "They smell like balloons" LOLOLOL. So that's it for trainings and stuff.

B

OKAY ACTUAL OP. Came to school much earlier in the morning so that we could sort out any last minute stuff and maybe practise a bit. Qi Min was ALREADY freaking out as usual. Shirlene a bit a bit. Ryan, Heer Tern and I were just chilling hahaha. Oh and Ryan's script was so memorable like almost everyone could remember the first part. "15%? 20%? 25%? Truth be told, household recycling rates are a HUMILIATING 13%, and that is a cause for concern." LOL. Crystal and Wei Xuan just went around saying that, and Ernest joined in also. Got a really nice surprise in that XIANG BIN was in the same classroom as me. Not only that, but MS HO was my assessor AWWW YISSSSS. Felt MUCH more at ease after that but it was still pretty scary to think about. During the break before our actual presentation Heer Tern and I just memorised out like random quotes from V for Vendetta hahahaha. VOILA! IN VIEW, A HUMBLE VAUDEVILLAIN VETERAN. When it came to our turn I guess we just "fuck it yoloswag"-ed that shit and did pretty well :) The Q&A had some hiccups but overall went quite nicely also. Lol when the teacher first gave me my question I asked for some time to think. Then he thought I asked for a repeat so he started saying the question again and all I could do was give the "wtf?" look hahaha. Took some retarded photos after that, but I'm just glad that PW's over. Now on to the serious stuff alr :/

W

Been in sort of a daze lately. I freaking forgot so much stuff just today lol. I knew though, what I was getting into. I guess I just wasn't prepared enough for how. I don't even know how to describe it lol. Everything just seems damn... blurry? And right now it feels like I'm holding this blob of glass and there's cracks appearing everywhere and you try to tape them up when they appear but they're appearing too fast and before you know it you're holding a bunch of shards. Holding remains. Holding the pieces. And it sucks cos you can't move anything without them stabbing into your fucking hands. Thing about bottling it up, the bottle cap tends to become a little rusty after a while. The funny thing is that this like some fucking comedy except there is no happy ending, it's real, damn, life. The pieces were all lined up I just never realised I could pull the trigger and now. Now everything's a "what if" and we all know how useless those are. The bullet's been shot by another and all you can do is watch it slice through the air. Amusing though how like sometimes it sinks in and sometimes it doesn't. And when I do realise the full extent of the truth it's like someone just kicked my knees in. But maybe I've come to accept it. And hey, I've dealt with so much disappointment already, what's one more eh. Time to pick myself from this. And move on.

Me

Good Night

Heard this during training today

I'll put his picture down

And maybe get some sleep tonight