The Dark Side

Of me. Which, frankly, I'm afraid of. Just doing some thinking, and it's kind of depressing. What I mean is, I'm actually a complete douchebag. And I'm not saying this to get sympathy or whatever, I'm saying this because deep inside me is an asshole. Come to think of it, I really don't know who I am. Kind of corny/cheesy, but I guess it's true. I try too hard to conform to other people, to try and make everyone happy. But the moments that scare me are the...how am I supposed to describe it? Heartless moments, I guess? I've discovered that I kind of just don't...feel anything anymore. Like I don't give shit anymore. You could be burning alive in front of me, and if it didn't directly affect me in any way, I could just sit there watching you. Urgh, welcome to my dark side. As in, I only help people cos if I didnt, others would think bad of me. Argh! Fuck! I have no idea why I do what I do. I mean, I really do want to help people. Just that sometimes I would just feel like... ''heck care'' FUCK MAN. I need help...I have no idea what to do with my life anymore.

Nvm

Tmr flying again \m/ Hope can practise more and get better quickly, NCC Day is next month already.

Good Night *tears hair*

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